The Stockholm Syndrome Incident & More for ‘Pedro’
Mary & John are Back - And Then Some Thoughts On Energy.
Do you remember what day the 20th of February 2026 was? It’s not that long ago, yet it feels like time has well stretched out to today (26th February). What the hell is it with Time anyways - And Space for that ‘Matter’ too, Eh!?
Which reminds me of that funny little meme that goes:
“You Matter”, unless you multiply yourself by Light Squared, - then “You Energy”! :-))
If I find the actual Meme again, I’ll post it. (Maybe Pedro stole it?).
Anyways, February 20th was the date of the precise conjunction between Neptune and Saturn at Zero degrees Aries.
Relevance?
Well, one of the more recent times that this last happened was when the God Dam French Revolution started! Now, you don’t really believe in Astrology, do ya? But that doesn’t really matter, because Astrology doesn’t need your belief - It’s just gonna do it’s own thing.
Why? Because All is One; because, As Above, So Below; Because As Within, SO Without. You see Everything is connected. EVERYTHING.
In one giant big web-like, Weft of a thing - Source Energy, The Field, whatever you want to call it. Right now, I’ve got real comfortable calling “it” God.
So God “it” is then.
“The 2026 alignment, in the fiery sign of Aries, is expected to bring a "breaking down" of current realities to make way for new, "unapologetic" societal changes”
Wrote Somebody.
Before we go onward - Here’s the first post in my “fictional” John & Mary / Mary & John series:
Some random photos I took, including photos of photos. One portrait format, and all the rest landscape (as if that matters!). I thought the one on the “Lost Persons” was really apt.
“So, What about Stockholm?” you ask. - Yes, I heard you.
Well, I was there with my family over the weekend. We arrived on Friday, 26th February - Conjunction Day, and the next day was Saturday - Mary’s birthday. So, we got set up in the hotel (nice hotel by the way), and went out for dinner. The first meal of a nice Birthday / Mid-term Weekend. On the Saturday evening at 7:00 pm I was to begin the first of the life-changing modules of Peter Crone’s (AKA Pedro’s) Master Mind 9 Programme.
(BTW, and before I go on - This Blog is written entirely for me, and just me. If you find it useful, Cool!, and let me know! Names have been changed to protect the ‘Guilty as Charged’, and the innocent…
And Then This Happened:
Yes, Dam Right I recorded the follow-up “interaction” in the hotel bar, as I have recently become accustomed to doing so, to protect my own sanity. (Read my Post on Covert Narcissim and Grey Rocks).
Pour yourself a stiff drink and settle in for a listen - It’s 26 minutes. This therapeutic discussion was made with the kind assistance of NoteBookLM.
No, I’m not mad enough (despite what Mary thinks) to post the actual Conjunctive ‘interaction’ here. But funny enough, when I downloaded the recording to my laptop, the file size was 33.3 Mb. And then, there was 333 Souls at Pedro’s first night, the following day.
“You Just Can’t Make this Shit Up!.
Useful Links:
A Resource For Victims Of Narcissistic Abuse & Gaslighting, By Psychotherapist Christine Louis de Canonville
Margaret Parkes, Psychotherapist - Expert in Narcissistic abuse and Coercive control
And So, On to “Energy” -
(Still Standing After All That? Just Checkin’)
FOUND IT !! - You DO Matter. You Are Energy, Light that Is.
So, I resonate strongly with the labels Empath; HSP; INFJ; Neptunian / Piscean - Outer planet person; Psychic Sponge.
I know these are just labels, but they have served a purpose on my journey in my growing awareness.
They are certainly more useful than the previous labels I had been given or adopted: Depressed; anxious; “too sensitive”; Bipolar (II).
In the world of Empaths, and HSPs there is plenty of talk about protecting energy and discerning what is your own, and what belongs to others. An "Energetic Autoimmune Response" in the context of an INFJ empath is where the sensitivity and capacity to “absorb” the emotions of others becomes overwhelming, causing the system to turn against itself.
I’ve heard about (& experienced) this phenomenon where an INFJ absorbs too much negative, toxic, or chaotic energy, resulting in severe emotional, mental, and physical burnout.
For me, it feels like an electrical fuse-board with no earthing wire, where the charge builds up and up, until an inevitable collapse.
Some of my N-of-One examples:
Very frequent headaches when I was at school - even when I was in primary level.
Periods of overwhelm, over-load and shutdown while at school - leading me to conclude there was ‘something wrong’ with me.
Retreating to a locked toilet cubicle at school break times to get away and regulate myself (grammar school).
I recall having convinced myself by around the age of 15 that I was experiencing periods of ‘Depression’, that ‘I had’ Depression - (this conclusion was probably aided by the medical journals lying around our house). An adopted primal lie?
Significant problems being in and around groups and crowds, and needing to retreat. Wanting to get away and sit in nature, cycle a bike, paddle a canoe.
Problems with handling alcohol compared to peers - i.e. being banjaxed for days on end after drinking, while others could motor on unaffected.
Difficulty filtering out other’s thoughts and feelings, whether directly expressed to me or not. Difficulty knowing ‘who I was’.
The first external pathologisation at 22, when I opened up to my doctor father - brought to a psychiatrist, labelled within 20 minutes, and left on medication for decades.
Episodes of extreme chronic ‘Shout-out-loud’ pain in my neck and shoulders that only valium relieved.
Multiple episodes of incapacitating pain across my chest and descending into my abdomen. So bad that I could barely crawl into the ER room door, or back to my car.
Significant struggles working in any kind of open plan offices - being drained of energy and turning grey.
Freezing up and nearly collapsing at high-tension construction site meetings - a nervous system chronically overloaded by its environment.
A ‘collapse’ in 2014 that left me medicated to the hilt and ultimately brought me to a precipice where I escaped ECT by the skin of my teeth (angels pulled me back).
And then there's the ongoing dance and current medical pathologisation of my ‘Expansion’ - between Empath and Narcissist spouse (covert in my case), which up until recently has on many occasions left me utterly floored, sometimes in the fetal position after ‘interactions’
Now having heard Pedro and Amigo Jared, I’m open to the possibility of this all being ‘Of Mind’.
To accept this means to accept my role, and to accept responsibility.
What would really interest me is how I came to manifest the episodes so early in my life, and also how I can let go.
If I created this energetic permeability (even unconsciously) as a learned subconscious program, then I must have the power to un-create it.
That seems to me to be real power - real Sovereignty.
My Questions -
If my sensitivity is a biological baseline (Hardware), but my tendency to absorb and be destroyed by other people's chaotic energy is a construct of Mind (Software), how do I reprogram my software without numbing my natural sensitivity (my gifts)? How do I remain an open 'Prism' without becoming a 'Psychic Sponge'?
Given that these overloads started in primary school (headaches, freeze, then hiding in toilet cubicles to regulate), what subconscious 'lie' did I likely buy into back then? What was its purpose when I was too young to understand what was happening?
I need to take full responsibility for my side of the Empath/Narcissist dance with my wife. If my mind is constructing this reality, what has been the energetic 'payoff' my ego has possibly been getting from staying in this dynamic? - Am I using her chaos to avoid facing something within myself?
How do I energetically 'let go' of other people's burdens without just building massive walls and isolating myself? What does an integrated, healthy boundary look like for someone like me whose mind is used to merging with others?
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